Mom, Mother, Mommy, Mum…
Right now, I am not a bedroom 10 feet from yours. I am not under your roof, I am not eating your food… right now, I am at college.
My days consist of class, and homework, and then mostly lying in bed watching Netflix (a sight I know you hate to see). I have meetings for clubs to attend, tests to study for, and friends to goof off with. It may not always sound it but I am pretty busy.
When you call and I don’t answer, I am having a dance session singing my lungs out to music with my friends. When I see that I missed call from you, I feel pretty bad I missed it and I promise the first chance I get to call back I always do.
When I am up late at night sitting in bed talking with my roommates as you are sound asleep, we are sharing stories from back home, most of those stories you appear in. We talk about how much we love our moms and how much we miss them, and I am not just saying that. I dont know if it’s just me but I think it’s pretty cool to be bffs with your mom. Most of my friends would agree. When I walk by my unmade bed, I find myself making it because I know I should as I hear your voice in the back of my head. When I do my laundry, I think about how much I took you and all the laundry you did for granted.
I miss you so much, but I also love being here and making you proud. Without your prominent impact on me as a human being, who is to say I would be where I am today. I am the girl I am because of you. As I begin to explore this world on my own, I will always look behind me hoping to see you watching me like you did when I first learned to walk. Although I may not always see you behind me, I know you are there. You are the phone call at 11 oclock pm I make when I can’t sleep because I am upset. You are the happy words I hear when I complete something I never thought I could. You are the voice of reason when I am stressed over too much work and homework. You are my rock.
Your desire for to me to grow to my full potential inspires me everyday to make you proud. In everything I do, I think of you and put my best effort forward just because I love the result of telling you, and getting to hear how proud you are of me.
High school sucked. Let’s just put it out there on the table. I would have never been able to survive a single day without you for those four years. You molded me into almost as strong a person as you are. You taught me to love myself, and to always hold my head high. You told me it was ok to be alone sometimes, something I hated. Whenever I have ever gone through a hard time in life I always think of you, and I am comforted by the fact I have a role model who is the strongest human being I know.
I am able to survive on my own now, without you right by my side. I still will always need you even if I can survive without you. My life would not be my life without you in it. Thank you for being a strong, independent, and kind role model. You make me want to be a better person, and I can honestly say I would not be half the person I am today without you. Thank you for being my rock, and my best friend.